Category: COMMITMENT

Living Judgement Free (is hard!)

by startoverevie, posted in COMMITMENT, Growth, life, love, Purpose

Have you ever been intentional about not judging? Not judging yourself or other people? That has been my goal this week and OMG, I never thought about how much I judge. I judge people on TV, I judge other drivers, leaders, family, and of course myself.

As I was getting ready to write this post, I decided to look up the dictionary definition of “Judgement” and this is what it says:
“the ability to make considered decisions or come to sensible conclusions.” For the word “Judgemental” we get a very explicit definition of what I’m always doing:
“Having or displaying an excessively critical point of view.” I am this person… maybe not as bad as others, but judgemental I am.

My goal this week is to be very aware of my reaction to others and myself in terms of judgement. I want to be judgement free as a whole. Is it possible? We will see.

In the meantime, please don’t judge me 🙂

Being “Mami”

by startoverevie, posted in COMMITMENT, family, life, love

I’m spend 85% of my time with my boys, except for the 3 hours a day Monday – Friday that they are in summer camp, I am always with them. They are 3 & 4 years old, so most of my day consists of responding to all of their “mami” requests. Mami I’m hungry, mami I don’t want that, mami it hurts, mami he hurt me, mami it’s not working, mamiiiiiiii. And yes it is mami because we are hispanic :-).

But, I can’t imagine a sweeter sound than that of my boys, specially when they call me name. They also come over and give me hugs and kisses and say they love me. So, at the end of the day, being “mami” is the biggest blessing I could have ever imagined.

Not perfect? It’s ok…

by startoverevie, posted in COMMITMENT, love

Dear self,

Just want to take a moment to let you know that it is ok for you not to meet the goals you set for yourself the way you originally planned. It is ok that you tried, and that you put an effort in trying to make your life better. It is ok to be confused, it is ok to question your decisions, it is ok to be a little messy. It is ok if you didn’t do it the way you had originally planned. Whatever the reasons are for not being able to achieve it as planned, just use those to do it better next time. Give yourself credit for trying, and above all things never forget that I love you. Don’t quit, keep trying, stay committed. Remember every day gives you a chance to start over and to do it better.

Love,

Me

Let’s talk relationships

by startoverevie, posted in COMMITMENT, family, love, marriage

Today I heard the best quote I’ve heard in a while regarding relationship in particular marriage. It goes like this:

“When you are fighting, it’s not me vs. you, it’s US against the problem”. -Jay Shetty

I mean, you know that this is something that rarely anyone thinks of in this way. But I really took this to heart because I know for a fact that if when having a disagreement or dealing with a problem my husband and I would think of it this way, it would all work out much better at the end. Just saying.

Tough but I ain’t’ giving up

by startoverevie, posted in COMMITMENT

This journey to lose weight is tough. I’ve messed up nearly every day, and I haven’t been meeting my goals. But I will not give up.

I’m writing because I said I’d write at least 3 times a week. I don’t have anything super inspirational, but I’m here. I heard in one of those inspirational videos that I should write down 3 reasons why we are doing whatever it is I am committing to. Here are my three:

  1. Because right now this weight is taking away from my ability to feel genuinely happy. I’m constantly in my head about it, feeling fat and ugly, and quite frankly very disgusted with myself. It feels horrible, and I have the power to change that!
  2. I want to be much more active. My boys that are 3 and 4 need mommy to play with them on the floor, run around, play tag, and soccer and whatever else they invent. I want to do that fully, freely, comfortably.
  3. Because if I continue on this path of obesity I will die sooner that I should. I simply don’t want my cause of death to be “because I am fat”!.

Today Weds, hump day, I look to the rest of the week with optimism and hope. Hey I’m here to start over as many times as I need to without giving up. 170 Here I come!!!!

Life Happens Every Day

by startoverevie, posted in COMMITMENT, Uncategorized

Well here I am.  Yeap, I am here to begin a revolution!  A revolution in me!  No one else, but, if as a bonus someone else gets inspired to their own revolution experience I will be excited for them too.

I can’t say what this blog is going to look like.  What I can say is that I’m committing to coming on here very regularly, in a perfect world I would journal here every day, but, knowing myself, I need to COMMIT to a minimum of three times a week.  Let’s say no matter what I will post on Sunday, Weds, and Friday.  Why do I capitalize the word “commit”? Well, that is a life muscle I’m developing and making stronger through this blog.  

Why did I label this post “Life Happens Every Day”?  Because it’s a reminder that no matter what happens, I have a chance to start over.  Which brings me to explain the name of my blog site.  I am on a journey to the revolutionary concept that WITH EACH MORNING WE ALL GET THE CHANCE TO START OVER.  This may seem obvious and a “wack” concept to some, maybe even “cornie” but my brain needs me to see things this basic way in order to allow myself the opportunity to forget yesterday and see today as the opportunity for a new beginning. Everyday I will forgive myself for the mistakes of yesterday.  Everyday I will reflect on those mistakes and bad choices and will do my best to do better. Making sure that I remind myself that life happens, and it’s important that I don’t take the bad choices to heart to the point that I don’t forgive myself.

About me… I am a mother of two boys of 3 and 4 years old.  They are the most wonderful, difficult and terrifying thing that has ever happen to me.  Their dad works away from home and so I function mostly as a single mom.  

The most important commitment I am making to myself on this day is to lose weight.  Yeap, as of today I weigh 244 lbs and I am 5’2.  I have been heavy my entire life.  I did lose a lot of weight between 2012 – 2013.  At my highest I was 302 lbs, and within that time period my lowest weight was 167 lbs.  That was a happy place for me, and I loved it, and I was happy, and felt present with myself.  I got married in 2013 and had my first son in 2015.  I got to 212 lbs after having my awesome son, and for the killer I got pregnant with my second son within two months, and slowly but surely the weight just kept on going up.  Obviously that was a result of eating out of control, which is a result of my emotional eating habits. 

Well, here I am, starting over for the 100th time, but I will not quit on myself.  I am COMMITTING to losing 70 lbs, this I know will take tons of PATIENCE and LOVE TOWARDS MYSELF, but I WILL NOT QUIT. 

Here’s for starting over, and over and over again, until the work is done, the goals are achieved, and I am completely satisfied with the outcome, or I will die trying. 

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